Where....

Lately I have been asking myself, Where do I go from here? The answer to that question is that I honestly had no idea. I have asked it a million times if I have asked it once in the last few months. I have been thru battles with depression and suicidal thoughts. I felt like my world was turning upside down. It is crazy to think that you have the whole world in front of you and then within a matter of seconds have it all disappear. Everything that you have worked for, everything that you have built your life around. But that is EXACTLY what happened to me on November 14, 2014. If you know me then you know this story, however if you don't know me I am not going to go into details. It is the past and I would truly like for that part of my past to stay just that. However in the months since that date I have questioned and re-questioned my every thought, my every move. Second guessing doesn't even begin to cut it more like fifth and sixth guessing every single thought. Where am I supposed to go from here? How am I supposed to get there? I have some very much appreciated encouraging friends and people that have had my back much longer than they should have had to. I have applied for job after job and jobs after that. So far only 1 interview. So then comes the question well how am I supposed to pick myself up off the ground and survive? How am I supposed to support my daughter? With those thoughts come more thoughts and questions that I dont have the answers for. There are a few things that I am looking into and hoping that God will give me the resources to THRIVE not just survive. I got my office space set up in my bedroom of my apartment and now it is time to create my future...because after all the best way to predict your future is to create it. Goodnight...